Walking In The Haze Of Life

From "the Fourth May" movement to the end of this century, Chinese mainland authoress seems never stopped exploring the female existing circumstance, they try to find a way for self-liberation, hope earnestly to escape from the comfortless world. In the dynamic historical procession, they persist to struggle the world by seeking fatal change and obtaining ego approbation. Because double influences from the culture deposition of anti- feudalism and the traditional anti-masculine power pressure since "the Fourth May" movement, and western female doctrine theories awaken native female's self-realization, authoress change their topics to a new direction gradually which different from the normal love mode and heterosexual relationship, there is a clear track that emotion of female homosexual was appeared in books written by authoress.In the literature sequence, authoress used female delicate and sensitive in literary, and artistic aesthetic sense of fresh perspective to give voice to Lesbian existence by a unique expression of understanding and aesthetic interpretation and show the real landscape of the life of female situation. They wander between the two sex of men and women, as well as male construct of the world, and brimming with passions and impulses in their hearts. A successful space has been built that is belong to women. But these have been plunged into a maze of identity identification which indicates much hardships of the groping road that they are ingredient of suspecting and disturbing. The multidimensional nature, complexity and richness of features opened out in the workand provided an opportunity to study Chinese women of writing from the Lesbian perspective of narrative.However, the spring of this new literature idea wasn't full valued in education field, and it even be ignored somehow. This situation makes homosexual literature researchers only can drift into comment on an essential edge sparsely. So far, there is even no one monograph about homosexual in Chinese mainland. There are only a few comments be showed in some monographs and treatises. About those comments, there was also two trends. The first one was those comments only focus on some case study, which didn't talk about the whole homosexual phenomenon. Another one was those scholars only gave overview of "the sister-sister relationship" and didn't give deeply analysis on the female homosexual literature. Most scholars just standed on the side of love between different genders, they limited their research in the relationship between female and the world around them, and didn't do deep research on inside feeling of female. They ignored the affect and meaning of being a homosexual to female, they didn't consider being a homosexual as new trying to be independent and confident.Therefore, from the side of female, this paper will research and analyze the inside of female and the life environment around female, and through reorganization and conclusion all homosexual treatises which were wrote by mainland female writers in the period between "the Fourth May" and the end of last century. This paper also will analyze the process of the female looking for and proving themselves. It will show readers how the female deal with the resistance, perplexity and worry in the whole process, and give readers the reasons of keeping fail. It will probe the inside characters of the female, which have been depressed and covered so long, and discuss how special the homosexual in literature and art studies. Finally it will work out thinking about the meaning of homosexuality in female's life and work. In a brief, this paper is trying to bring this field a new concept and topic about homosexual study.